Migraine Awareness Month #9: Day Dream Believer

Describe your dream day - without a Migraine to hold you back.

I often find myself thinking about my wedding and how wonderful it would be without a Migraine to disrupt it.  My husband and I eloped almost 15 years ago and we never had a ceremony or celebration of any kind.  As each year passes I wish that I had the chance to wear a beautiful dress and have an absolutely fabulous time celebrating with family and friends.  Most importantly, I want pictures for my children.  Also, getting married so young and without any support from family made my marriage hard for many to accept and be happy about.  So, I feel that there may be some people who still don't believe in my marriage and I want to show that, although it was after a short courtship, that my choice was a rational and knowing one.

 

But still, I sometimes wish that we would have waited to plan out a traditional wedding.  I didn't know then that I would be upset about not having that.  I think that it's mostly because I want to have my marriage validated by those closest to me.  I haven't really felt like it has been taken very seriously over the years and that hurts my feelings.  Plus, after all this time, I want a day that I can be beautiful because I spend most of them feeling the opposite.  My illnesses have a way of making me feel like I can't have anything to make me feel special.  So, it is a recurring dream of mine to have my wedding at a vineyard with a group of at least 100 close friends and family and have Raheem DeVaughn as our entertainment to sing our song "Mo Better".  It's a nice fantasy and don't think it will happen. I'm about to be 34, I'm overweight, and I'm not financially able to bring this dream to life.  So for now, I guess I'll just do with the thought of it.

National Migraine Awareness Month is initiated by the National Headache Foundation. The Blogger's Challenge is initiated by www.FightingHeadacheDisorders.com.